An epiphany

A time something dawned on was the other day when I was doing financial aid for college. It hit me that I'm almost 19 and I'll be living on my own and that I'm an adult. That I might actually have to act my age. I never put 2 and 2 together before.  I guess I probably should have figured it out by my mother crying every time I talked about going away. It felt weird when I realized this, it was horrible the thought of acting like my age gave me the creeps.